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Every time I talk openly about my anxiety, I get the same response, from so many people.

You’re not broken.

They’re right. I’m not broken. It’s not that I can’t be fixed. It’s not that I can’t overcome my anxiety. It’s not that there is no hope and I should just be thrown out like the pieces of my favorite porcelain mug that I accidentally dropped. I can be put back together and there’s a great possibility that I will one day return to my former, non-anxiety-filled self.

I’m not broken, but I’m definitely glitching.

definition of the word glitch

I can’t wake up, get myself ready for the day and get things done, without some sort of malfunction. Anxiety has been a constant disruption in my daily life, for years now.

Some days it’s the inability to stop working long enough for a little self-care. Other days, my anxiety level is so high, I have to lay down or cry, or a combination of the two. Then, there are the days when I have errands to run, but have to continuously tell myself that I won’t have a panic attack while we’re on our way to the store, inside of the store, or on the way home from the store.

I’m not broken, but I’m definitely not ok.

My mind’s first reaction to just about any invitation, experience or opportunity is fear. Pure fear. Fear that I’ll have a panic attack in front of people. Fear that they will talk about me. Fear that they will stare. Fear that my kids will witness it. Fear of how far our car will be from wherever we are and whether or not I can get back to it quickly, if I need to. Fear of waiting on a line that might be one minute too long and I’ll have to walk out of the store, because the anticipation of the anxiety attack has already overcome me and I know I can’t come back from that.

I know I’m not broken, but sometimes I don’t believe it.

Every morning, I tell myself that this is not permanent. Nothing in life is. Tomorrow will be better. I will overcome something big today and celebrate my victories, no matter how small. With each victory, every obstacle ahead will seem easier and easier. I don’t have to settle for what anxiety has brought into my days.

I’m not broken. I’m just glitching and glitches can be fixed.

When a computer glitches, we restart or reset it. I just need to restart myself, clear my memory of the thoughts and feelings that seem to be the root of the problem. If I can get rid of whatever combination of factors that created the glitch in the first place, I can restore myself to the time when I didn’t have a care in the world.

But what are they? How do I find them and more importantly, how do I drag them to the trash?

My faith is bigger than my anxiety.

I have faith that one day, those obstacles won’t be an issue anymore.

Fear won’t be an issue anymore.

Anxiety won’t be an issue anymore.

I refuse to believe that anxiety will cause a total system failure. I have too much life left to live. Too much to see. Too many places I want to travel to. Too much to say to too many others like me who are reading this and know exactly what I’m feeling.

We may be glitching, but we aren’t broken.

THIS GLITCH IS ONLY TEMPORARY.

Anxiety hasn't broken me, but I'm definitely glitching. I'm a mother, living with a panic disorder and this is my story.

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  • Shannon Gurnee
    July 12, 2019

    Sometimes when I’m going through a tough time, I think I’m broken. I like the idea of it being a glitch better than being broken.
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  • Jennifer
    July 10, 2019

    I love the way you look at it. Its honestly so relatable. My anxiety can get bad and the way some people talk it makes you feel broken even if you arent

  • Anxiety can really complicate your life, but recognizing you have it – it´s the first step for a change! At the end, it´s all about overcoming difficulties and becoming a better version of yourself!
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  • Claudia Krusch
    July 9, 2019

    You’re not broken! There are always different views and different ways to react! Loved reading your post!
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  • Tiffany La Forge-Grau
    July 9, 2019

    Anxiety can be such a bur. Especially if you’re open and honest about it. People treat you differently. Tough stuff.

  • Ruth I
    July 9, 2019

    It’s easy to say that we need to be optimistic but really hard when you are on that situation. I am glitchy too, but glad we are not broken.

    • Heather
      July 9, 2019

      You’re so right Ruth! It’s so much easier to say than to actually do.

  • Emman Damian
    July 9, 2019

    I hope we learn from all the glitches in life. It’s always a learning lesson. Let’s be optimistic and hope for the best. We are broken but we will be healed.
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  • Marysa
    July 9, 2019

    I feel a little glitchy myself, lately. School is out and we are trying to settle into a routine, but we are all out of sorts. I have lost my motivation and I want to relax but there’s a lot to get done too..

  • Rachel
    July 9, 2019

    I also struggle with anxiety. I like this sentiment. I will have to make a sign for myself.

  • Lynndee
    July 9, 2019

    Yes, everything is temporary. If you are experiencing or having problems or troubles at the moment, know that it shall pass.
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  • Karin
    July 9, 2019

    Thank you so much for this vulnerable post. It’s nice to hear this analogy and perspective.

  • Cathy Mini
    July 9, 2019

    I totally agree with you and I love how you used words. You are truly inspiring!

  • Lisa Favre
    July 9, 2019

    I can totally relate to all of this: the sleepless nights, the mornings where I wake up and I am just getting anxious over everything… those horrible butterflies in my stomach. Thank you for sharing your perspective and reminding us that we’re not alone.

    • Heather
      July 9, 2019

      Lisa, I’m so sorry that you also have those same issues. I hope that the more we all talk about it, the easier it will be to fight it and get back to our old selves!

  • Brianne
    July 9, 2019

    The word “glitch” is perfect. I wish for people who have anxiety will read this, and know that there is hope for them. No one will ever be perfect.

  • Karen
    July 9, 2019

    Your use of the word “glitch” is spot on! I know many people who fit this definition, but feel that there’s no hope to being “fixed”. I’ll have to share this with them, because they would identify with your post!

    • Heather
      July 9, 2019

      Thank you Karen! I appreciate that!

  • Stephanie Parrell
    July 9, 2019

    I can really relate to that. When my anxiety gets really bad I have the same feelings. But I have not had those feeling for years so I know that those feelings actually can go away. You dont have to live like forever it and it can be cured.

    • Heather
      July 9, 2019

      That gives me hope, Stephanie! Do you know what changes you made to stop the anxiety?

  • I love this! You made me realize a lot of things! Very motivating!! Thank you so much!
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  • Nnniiiccceeeeeee….I love the fact that you are hopeful for a better tomorrow! That’s a huge movement in a much happier direction.
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  • Catalina
    July 9, 2019

    You are so right! We are not broken!!!! This is the best point of view!

  • rika
    July 9, 2019

    I am so sorry that you have to go through this. Anxiety is not fun, I suffer from it too!

    • Heather
      July 9, 2019

      I’m very sorry to hear that Rika.

  • Danielle Faith
    July 9, 2019

    I empathize. Life is not easy. Stress comes in various shapes and forms. Even a good stressor can be difficult to accept and act on. I found that CBT really helped my anxiety.
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    • Heather
      July 9, 2019

      CBD oil did help me for a bit, but I seem to have grown immune to it.

  • Stefani Tolson
    July 9, 2019

    I have always struggled with anxiety too! I like your “glitch” thinking. 🙂

    • Heather
      July 9, 2019

      I’m so sorry to hear that!

  • I don’t personally struggle with anxiety in the way you do, but I appreciate you sharing your experience so I can be more empathetic to those who do.
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  • Celebrate Woman Today
    July 8, 2019

    I love the word you’re using in this situation. Speaking out loud about anxiety and acknowledging its presence in yourself are some of the powerful things in self-healing.
    It also allows others to draw the same strength and support.
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    • Heather
      July 9, 2019

      I really hope that’s true!

  • Terri Steffes
    July 8, 2019

    What some call broken, I call my uniqueness. There are no perfect people, we all just have different needs.
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    • Heather
      July 9, 2019

      I love that way of thinking!

  • Mama to 6 Blessings
    July 8, 2019

    See I know I am broken that is why I NEED Jesus. At some point we are all broken. Anxiety can over power us if we allow it. It’s hard I know, I think we all experience it.
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  • Wren
    July 8, 2019

    I love that you call it a glitch. That is a great term for it. I struggle with anxiety and it has been hard to come to grips with things I don’t feel in control of. Yet sometimes I can be absolutely fine. Thank you for this great read! <3
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    • Heather
      July 8, 2019

      Control… that is the key word. My anxiety is worse when I don’t feel like I’m in control of the situation. I’m so sorry that you are also dealing with anxiety!

  • Carolyn
    July 8, 2019

    I struggle with anxiety too. Love the thought that it’s just a glitch and we can reset, instead of being something that we have to live it forever!

  • Myrah Duque
    July 8, 2019

    Yes. Anxiety is uncomfortable. My daughter suffers from it and I didn’t realize it until she started college. I feel that talking about helps. You explained it in such a great way. I hope and know that this glitch is temporary.

  • Ashley
    July 8, 2019

    I relate to this so much. I like that, I’m not broken I’m glitching. I’m going to use that.

  • Susan Carraretto
    July 8, 2019

    Anxiety has plagued me for my entire life. I used to throw up as a kid when my mom was 2 minutes late, I used to be sick before exams, and all sorts of other times. I spend many days nauseous for no particular reason. And this is when I am medicated!!!
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    • Heather
      July 8, 2019

      I’m so sorry, Susan! My anxiety didn’t show up until I was an adult. I can’t imagine having to go through that as a child. Have things gotten any better?

  • Denay DeGuzman
    July 8, 2019

    I affirm to the universe that your glitch will soon be over, and you will be feeling nothing but joy, freedom and wellness. For you, anxiety is a thing of the past!
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    • Heather
      July 8, 2019

      Thank you Denay. I appreciate that.

  • So important to voice it!
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  • Summer Shores
    July 8, 2019

    Wow this blog was so authentic and real, than you so much for sharing. Truly inspiring!

  • Brandy Caldwell
    July 8, 2019

    I’m sorry you’re struggling. It’s important to talk about! Hugs to you!

  • Kelli A
    July 8, 2019

    It is so hard to put into words what your are feeling and thinking but add anxiety to that and it becomes a whole other ball game. I love how you explained this. I completely understood every word you wrote! <3
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  • Natalie
    July 8, 2019

    I can relate to this. I know it’s a mindset thing for me, and it’s hard to reprogram/reset my brain. But I won’t let anxiety define me and force myself to do things outside of my comfort zone, one small step at a time.
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    • Heather
      July 8, 2019

      I’m sorry to hear that it affects you Natalie! I think you’re heading in the right direction!

  • Tara Pittman
    July 8, 2019

    I think we all have glitches and need to reset ourselves. I think selfcare is always a great way to over a time like this.
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    • Heather
      July 8, 2019

      You’re right. If only I took the time to practice it.

  • Amber Myers
    July 8, 2019

    This can be tough. I know I get anxiety at times. Social anxiety, for one. I am an introvert, so I panic when I know I”ll be with groups of people. Also, I can’t drive on a highway without freaking out. I’m working on it!

    • Heather
      July 8, 2019

      I’m sorry to hear that. I believe a lot of my anxiety is social triggered.

  • Brittany Putman
    July 8, 2019

    Anxiety is so huge and the hard thing is that no one can see it. Good for you for speaking out about this.

  • Stacie
    July 8, 2019

    I love that you share your story and struggles with us. It’s a refreshing breath of fresh air. Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us. So many out there need to know that they’re not alone.
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  • Lian Wright
    July 8, 2019

    I get you. I felt this way after being at home alone with my younger two kids for a few years. It took a bit not to feel a bit of anxiety when doing things on my own.
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    • Heather
      July 8, 2019

      Do you think that it was because you spent so much time at home? I often wonder if working from home for the last 10 years has contributed to it for me.

  • Rena
    July 8, 2019

    I am nodding along with it all. I have gotten so bad that I seldom leave my house and leave my poor husband to do the grocery shopping, laundry or whatever. If I do leave the house I can only do it with him. I hate living like this and I’m working to reboot myself as well (love that analogy). I start therapy on Wednesday for the very first time.
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    • Heather
      July 8, 2019

      I am exactly the same way! I’m happy to hear that others are going through the same thing, but also so sad that others are going through the same thing. I did try therapy and am considering going back again. I hope it gives you what you need to get back to life.

  • Jeanette
    July 8, 2019

    It sounds like you are extremely honest about what you’re going through and that is always a first good step to whatever goal you have in mind for yourself. Always be honest with yourself and I think you will get far.
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  • robin rue
    July 8, 2019

    It sounds like you have a good handle on it, though and you’ve learned to live with the anxiety. I know it’s hard, but hang in there.

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