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My name is Heather and I was diagnosed with Anxiety Disorder. Sometimes it completely takes over and keeps me in bed. But most days, I get the courage to fight through it. After years of taking prescription meds, I decided I had had enough. While they work for so many, I found that pumping my body with pills had way more negative effects on me than I needed. I turned to my doctor, friends, family and google, searching for alternatives. More than any others, the two suggestions that popped up the most were yoga and meditation.
I fought the idea… for longer than I will admit. I just couldn’t understand how either of those things could help me and calm me down. But, the more I spoke to people about it, the more they suggested them. It was becoming a recurring answer. And if I was looking for a sign, I must have missed the one that was smacking me in the face daily.
Yoga. Meditation. Mindfulness.
I started with meditation. After just a couple of weeks, I can honestly say that I saw a difference. If I meditated in the morning, I felt more calm throughout the day. If I meditated at night, I slept better. I meditated daily for about a month and then, like most things that I cross paths with, I stopped. It wasn’t because it wasn’t working, it was because when things start getting better for me, I panic.
My anxiety spiraled out of control again. Occasionally, I would feel so bad that I would turn to meditation, but not bad enough that I went back to practicing regularly.
The more I spoke about it, the more people told me that I needed to add yoga into my routine. And because I’m the most stubborn person I know, I ignored them. I told them that yoga was the last thing that I needed. The thought of going to a class with a bunch of people who were extremely flexible and half my size, sounded awful. All eyes on me? It was a panic attack waiting to happen.
Then, I got an email from Bulldog Yoga. It was enough to make me stop and seriously consider the idea. I agreed to try it out because Bulldog Yoga is not your average yoga. They are about making yoga approachable, accessible and fun. And it’s all done online. So that means, I can do it in the comfort of my own home, without any skinny, bendable stranger’s eyes on me. And I can do it on my terms, when I want.
I can’t say it’s been easy. I tell myself that I will wake up and take an online class and then the morning comes and I make excuses. When you suffer from anxiety, sometimes planning is your enemy. But on the days that I stopped and committed to taking a class, it was unlike any other type of exercise I’d ever done. It’s not a fast paced, give me some water now type of exercise. It’s more of a stretch and push your own limits type of exercise. I found myself finally being able to shut off my mind and just “be” in the moment. That’s something I haven’t felt in a while. And as a person with anxiety, it’s what I need.
Now, I imagine what it will be like once I stop being so stubborn and add meditation back into the mix. I think all of those people just might be right.
While I can’t say that this will become a daily thing for me, I am committed to giving it a chance. I like how yoga makes me feel and I look forward to the day when it comes natural to me. So natural that I won’t want to run from it.
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