Hey Siri… You’ve been so helpful with so much in my daily life and I’m hoping you can help me with something I’m struggling with.
Remember that time I wanted to find a vegan restaurant? You showed me a map with at least 2, just miles from my house.
And then there was that time that I wanted to know where I had seen that actress before. You gave me a list of movies she was in.
Well, this request is a little different. It’s something that lots of women around the world are probably struggling with as well. Especially those who deal with anxiety, like I do.
Hey Siri, where can I find some confidence?
I went from buying clothes that showed off my body to wearing the a t-shirt and yoga pants every day. Comfortable is the new fashionable, isn’t it? I need something to cover this post baby bod. I know it’s been almost 7 years, but I’m still working on it.
I read somewhere that makeup can make you feel beautiful. So, I bought a bunch of makeup. I used it once, but I wound up wiping it off because I think it makes me look like I’m trying too hard. What’s that saying, you can put lipstick on a pig, but it’s still a pig…
I finally built up the courage to get my hair professionally cut, after 7 years. It didn’t make me feel confident, like everyone said it would. I straightened and curled it twice and it’s been in a Mom bun ever since. $45 down the drain.
They say exercise gets those endorphins going and that if I get back to my pre-baby weight, I’ll get my confidence back. But when I start exercising, and my heart starts beating fast, I feel like I’m about to have a panic attack, so I stop.
I tried affirmations. Every morning I woke up, looked in the mirror and told myself:
I am beautiful.
I am intelligent.
I am loved.
I am needed.
I can do anything I put my mind to.
Then, I changed into my t-shirt and yoga pants, put my hair into a Mom bun, and came up with 100 excuses why I couldn’t exercise.
So you see, Siri, I need your help. Where can I find some confidence?
Is there an app I can download?
Directions to the confidence store you can map out?
A recipe for a green smoothie with a boost of certainty?
I’m not looking for an easy fix, I know that people with self-confidence work hard at it. I’m just searching for a way back to myself.
To the me that used to think I could change the world.
To the me that enjoyed self-care.
To the me that loved fashion.
To the me that always had a smile on my face.
To the me that loved myself.
To the me that was excited about the future.
To the me that was going to be the perfect role model for my daughters.
Ok, maybe I’ll ask Alexa.